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The Biggest Fail!

Hello Everyone! 

Sorry its been a while but I’ve been so ill recently. I’ve been in bed all day and night, the only time I’m really out of bed is for an evening meal. I have no idea whats wrong or why this is happening but unfortunately this means I’ve had no life for about 5 weeks now. 

Something has just clicked in my head right now. I don’t know what, maybe its the amount of YouTube videos I’ve been watching and trying to edit my Vlog from Florida that has just given me this burst of energy and urge to just do everything right now. Also someone telling me that I need to grow up may be something else to do with it. I just want to change my life. 

I have so much still to do on my list of 22 thing to do before I’m 22 and I turn 22 in just under two months now. I’m finally seeing my friend Lara tonight which is long over due and then catching up with Olivia and Ben after for some drinks (mocktails for me). I’m going to have to be up all day now as I’ve not been falling asleep until around 6am (its 5am now) and then I get up around 4pm which is just the biggest waste of day and life. I’m not lazy in any way, I hate being in bed! It’ so dull and boring and just a waste as I keep saying. I am going to have to be awake now for over 24 hours to try and break this cycle i’m currently stuck in. I tried and failed this time last week but as I’m off out around 6pm in the evening I’m hoping this works. I’m also going to drink coffee, lots and lots of coffee. 

Does anyone else just get this feeling in the middle of the night or when you can’t sleep? This will probably fail so much and I’ll fall asleep straight after this. 

I’m dying to get better and act for a living. I’ve watched way too many films and TV shows now (currently Once Upon A Time) where I’m just sat here thinking how much I want to be in these shows and films. I know I can do it, I know this is the only thing I’m good at. As much as I hated it at A Level (mainly cause of bullying which caused me to lose my confidence) I’m determined to show people wrong. 

I’m going to have a massive clear out. Not just cause I have too much stuff, but to get rid of old people and bad memories in my life. Its a start. 

I will be back a lot sooner than last time! Hopefully with better news on the ’22 Things to do before I’m 22’ front. 

Take care,


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