After my week long blogging I’ve taken a break for a while. I’ve always been ill on top of my chronic illnesses so I’ve not bee great.
I did manage to go see my cousin before she went to prom, all dressing up looking older than me! I can’t believe my prom was nearly 6 years ago and back then my cousin wasn’t even in High School.
Megan and Me @ Megan's Prom 2015 I'm the one in the red dress @ My Prom 2009
I can’t believe what has happened and how different my life is now 6 years on from Prom. I remember hating the idea of leaving school and going to college which I was so right about as I despised college. I did have so much to look forward to back then though and so many dreams and aspirations for my life. I remember thinking how seen I’d be grown up, living away from home and starting my adult life. My life couldn’t be further from that now.
After watching way too many films, tv shows and award shows lately I’m determined to head towards my dream of acting again. I’m determined more than ever to sort my life and live for me. This illness and other people around me have taken over and lead my life for me without me realising. I thought that because I had to leave Uni when I was 18 that that would be it and I would never get my life to a decent standard.
I’ve grown to realise that no matter how old you are you can still achieve your dreams. You don’t have to be 18 to go to Uni or drama school. You don’t have to leave school and immediately decide what you want to do for the rest of your life and that is it. This is something I don’t think is explained enough at the end of school.
When I was in school I felt like that you had to go to college and then to Uni. If you do want to do that, thats fine too but don’t panic and waste too much time thinking about what courses you want to do. You can always change your mind. I’d say to make sure you give something a fair go. I left Uni after only two weeks but that was for health reasons but if it’s because you’re not enjoying it there’s no point wasting 3 or more years of your life in Uni miserable. Oh and don’t just go cause your friends are. Do what you want to do and nothing else.
Even after completing a degree you can change your mind. My own brother had a model making degree and he worked on some pretty good films straight after like Prometheus, Edge of Tomorrow and Star Wars but he now focuses on his music because it’s what he’s always loved too. He’ll always have that degree and experience in model making and the contacts he’s made to fall back on too which is always good but he’s a lot happier making music and thats more important.
You have plenty of time to make your mind up. Try different things, don’t give up too easily but don’t make yourself unhappy.
Do what makes you happy.